Week 6

Today I am six weeks along, so you were conceived four weeks ago. One month. I have only known you have been growing in me for a week and a half now. It seems like I have known forever. It is going by so slow. I am sure when birthing time comes it will seem like it went by so fast, but for now, it is dragging by. I am enjoying this time, the best as I can - because you seem to have some negative effects on my body, but I am really trying to savor every moment because I know I can never get this time back. I just can't wait until you are bigger and the risks for miscarriages are lower. I am a very worrisome person and I am sure I will be an extremely worrisome mom, but I promise to try my best to provide you a life with balance. You will have choices, rewards and consequences. You will be disciplined but also encouraged to be yourself and have fun. There will be boundaries but we will want you to live life and push the limits. I hope to provide you with everything you want and need to become a responsible, healthy person.

It's not raising you that is worrisome to me. I know your dad and I will do a good job with that and we will work hard and try our best. I know there will be times we have no clue what to do and we will feel like screaming. I can handle all that. Now, I am just so worried about getting you here. I am worried about miscarriages and birth defects and getting sick. I worry about everything that could possibly effect you right now. It's making me crazy but I am doing my very best to ensure that you are as healthy as I can make you. I'm even trying to occasionally gag down some protein shakes. Yuk.

This week you will be getting bigger. You will also be forming your chin, jaw, nose, ears (holes), cheeks and your brain cavity will be forming. You will start to form lungs and could get up to 1/5 of an inch long. So much is happening right now and that truely amazes me!

Grandma Maez is having a BBQ today for my uncle Bill. He is getting remarried and a lot of our family from grandma Maez's side will be there. I don't think many of them know about you yet, but I plan on telling them all today while we are there. I am really excited. Even though we aren't really close to that side of the family, they are all really good people and I think they will all be excited for us too.

Keep growing.

Love you,

Mom