Left You

Dear Bracken,

I left you with a sitter for the first time today. You are six weeks and two days old and I have never been away from you. I haven't even left you alone with dad. I had a doctor appointment yesterday and you kept crying and I felt bad for the doctor who was trying to keep you quiet while doing my check up. Today I had a dentist appointment and thought it probably is a good idea to leave you with someone so that doesn't happen again. Aunt Katrina offered to watch you since she is in town.

I took you to her hotel and left you with her for two hours. I hurried and thought about you the entire time I was gone. I was so sad to leave you. I know in a few weeks when I go back to work I will have to leave you every day and I am not looking forward to that time. I have a hard time trusting people to take care of you. I also feel bad because you cry and fuss so much and I dont want people getting frustrated with you. But, you survived and did a good job with her. She also did a good job with you and everything was fine. It is just so hard to leave you.

Love,

Mom